very hard :(

and all come up with what was expected.

and yet no single emotion was chaged!

alam na ng lahat. they already knew that i still like him…  a friend of mine whom was once became crazy a while for that guy, suggested that i really have to forget him na and she also admitted that he is somehow too hard to forget. actually its been a sem that my friend fell on him and she work it out last sembreak. i

am thankful and grateful kasi my friend understand me. even though i kept it to her for it seems a long time din. i told her naman that the reason why i kept on keeping it from her because i really don’t like her to be hurt. i am her friend and i think i can’t afford to hurt and eventually lose her.

i have to let myself let go of the feelings because sbi ni friend ko mahuhurt lang daw ako lalo na ngayon i am now a friend of her girlfriend. so what do you expect. i don’t like naman na malaman ng gf nia the HD of mine to her bf diba. sbi nila magiging or nagiging backstabber na daw ako. am i? all of those crazy things, one thing is for sure di ko lahat sinasadya to and di ko pinili to noh, duh! bakit ko wari pipiliin ung isang bagay kung alam kong mahihirapan or masasaktan ako diba. . .see the difference? 

anyway, as to what my friend said to me, its better to forget him na nga and i also then realized na that’s right. at yan ang kailangan kong gawin ngayon okei. eh pano? (nuko pano daw??!ahe)i myself don’t know. because he’s bothering me from time to time.(not literal ok) and most especially i am seeing him pa. buti nga hindi araw-araw eh. maybe it is twice or just thrice a week.. at sa tuwing makikita naman namin sya, eto naman ang aking mga kaibigan  tatawagin ako at tipong nang-aasar pa. haay nakuh ang suportib nila noh. lol

oh sya dramahan is enough! this would just mean nothing. walang patutunguhan. ! wala naman akong magawa. kaya ako nagbblog ngayon dahil lahat ng toh di ko masabi sa akin friendship kasi i’m kinda shyness. lam nio na mahiyain kuno ako,.and that’s so! babye!!!mua ’til next blogging ok! 

every serious matter still have its own confusion <3

new life!

my heart has a mind of it’s own and i could say that its wisdom is nothing to do with studying everyday in school waiting to learn something new..it would  probably discover an doubtful thing yet it seems your heart blooms..

 anyway new life kasi new sem na..lol..hindi ko na  classmate yung crush ko pero syempre other way around may pumalit sa kanya. medyo hawig ung ugali nila pinagkaiba lang etong new guy fond with his friend and syempre BESTFRIEND! hmft… bestfriend daw! ahaha…actually nacucutn lang ako sa kanya. haha…

this sembreak na dumaan madami tlagang nangyari sa aking buhay-buhay. actually even before matapos pa yung first sem it all started na. nag-umpisa na naman sa pagkikita na naman at ayun etong gagang babae (si ako) bumalik ng bonggang-bongga. but then yung mga time pa na yun gusto pa sya ni frend ko (ceedee is the mighty name! lol) . . . that was the time i chose to handle it on my own and itago ko ito kay frend kasi it might hurt her na kapag nangyari yun there might be a possibility na mainis ako sa sarili ko at aun… there was two persons lang na nakakaalam na knukwento ko sa kanila yung mga nangyayari. pero! TRIVIA: yung dalawang yun (bali kaming tatlo ISA lang ang crush namin! ganun sya katindi.lol) nevertheless, they inderstand me namn.. oi infairness alam na ni frend ang lahat kasi nkonensya ako and i decided to tell them na para sabi nga ni honesty ko para daw marelease na yung kung anu man ung tinatago. di naman kasi sa tinatago ko yun, it’s just because ayaw kong masira friendship namin just for a guy of whom di nman nmin masyadong kilala.. at ngayon masaya na anglahat di ko lang ngayon lam kun may konting hinanakitsakin si friend dahil sa paglilihim ko sa kanya.ewan ko bah …. basta i did triedmy very best to be a good friend..(ows di nga?)  

that’s it…it hurts din pala! in other way around nga sabi nila!

ang aking gagang HEART!