very hard :(
November 26, 2009
and all come up with what was expected.
and yet no single emotion was chaged!
alam na ng lahat. they already knew that i still like him… a friend of mine whom was once became crazy a while for that guy, suggested that i really have to forget him na and she also admitted that he is somehow too hard to forget. actually its been a sem that my friend fell on him and she work it out last sembreak. i
am thankful and grateful kasi my friend understand me. even though i kept it to her for it seems a long time din. i told her naman that the reason why i kept on keeping it from her because i really don’t like her to be hurt. i am her friend and i think i can’t afford to hurt and eventually lose her.
i have to let myself let go of the feelings because sbi ni friend ko mahuhurt lang daw ako lalo na ngayon i am now a friend of her girlfriend. so what do you expect. i don’t like naman na malaman ng gf nia the HD of mine to her bf diba. sbi nila magiging or nagiging backstabber na daw ako. am i? all of those crazy things, one thing is for sure di ko lahat sinasadya to and di ko pinili to noh, duh! bakit ko wari pipiliin ung isang bagay kung alam kong mahihirapan or masasaktan ako diba. . .see the difference?
anyway, as to what my friend said to me, its better to forget him na nga and i also then realized na that’s right. at yan ang kailangan kong gawin ngayon okei. eh pano? (nuko pano daw??!ahe)i myself don’t know. because he’s bothering me from time to time.(not literal ok) and most especially i am seeing him pa. buti nga hindi araw-araw eh. maybe it is twice or just thrice a week.. at sa tuwing makikita naman namin sya, eto naman ang aking mga kaibigan tatawagin ako at tipong nang-aasar pa. haay nakuh ang suportib nila noh. lol
oh sya dramahan is enough! this would just mean nothing. walang patutunguhan. ! wala naman akong magawa. kaya ako nagbblog ngayon dahil lahat ng toh di ko masabi sa akin friendship kasi i’m kinda shyness. lam nio na mahiyain kuno ako,.and that’s so! babye!!!mua ’til next blogging ok!
every serious matter still have its own confusion <3
